d bearings of a confused mind..

D story goes bck to 1986 A.D. freezing winter…a small cabin in GMC…whr a confused mind wid lil to do sees d light of d sun.. she smiles n then cries leaving every1 into fenzy.. oops the same story goes on till now…

Being a single child s a bliss…u can ask 4 nethng n everything…wid every stone ur dad lays…u r sure dat its gonna b urs.. huh dnt bother bout this hard work or his efforts…after all everythng he does s for u… ma n deta still celebrate my b’day wid so much enthusiasm… even I do…n y not I was born intelligent…destined to be famous… but u see d great minds r nt stable enough…remember Leonardo d vinci…he foraged into all sorts of thngs ..aristole-the father of every x,y,z kinda studies…

N me… I could b d next aristotle or da vinci…herez some insights-

i ll start 4m 10th standard 2002-2003.. coz before dat i dreamt so many dreams dat i hardly remember them..

Classx:loved physics…I wanted to b an astronaut…my mom was so proud of me… she dreamt of me becoming d nxt kalpana chawla…I was so fond of her..i hv joined a community in orkut too…thnks orkut n its communities.. it z now d inn status symbol of gen x..d more hap(shorter 4 happening) communities u join…the more hap u r..

Classxi:dreamt of studying literature.. I thought myself to b the nxt rushdie..u see tender mind tender thoughts… my dreamz shattered.. ur parents r docs n u gotta b a doc too!

Classxii: I wanna be an engineer..naa naa…its not NITs u see..m destined to be in iits.. hell got loose…soon mid terms followed..realized my potential in mathe-da-matics n determined myself…a docs daughter hs gotta b a doc only…never seen my parents smiling so happily wen I mentioned this to dm..

Past classxii..entrance tym: flunked badly in d entrances… hw d hell I cld nt clear it… I got letter marks in bio… wot if I was relishing my new found dream of studyng in delhi univ before my entrance..i was busy in my newly gifted computer d whole day.. wot if I spent day dreaming of becoming an ias one day.. (I even prepared d speech for my ias felicitatn ceremony)…I was destined to b a doc..let it b…I gve u a damn!

It was always delhi univ for me… from d day my cousin went to U.S …he was a DU pass out u see… n thr s a popular notion dat every x,y,z who cnt clear medical entrance..studies zoology…***k u man…its completely my choice… hw I cherish d zoology classes in sibsagar college… its my dream..i ll go 4 higher studies u see… abroad!! U ll see me smiling n sendng pics of beautiful sceneries 4m west…

D only dream of mine to b fulfilled…DU..D gr8 DRC…as if it mattersIT being a grls coll.. huh.. its 3yrs buddy n I ll b off to sme foreign land studyng biotech..(another dream)… shattered again…it proved to b as disastrous as my maths paper…3 yrs of zoology made me forget all..***k u all…dnt ever utter d word bio. before me…

2007… :u see MBA s r d in thng …go 4 CAT buddy…u see u r a gr8 manager…a born leader…HEY its not me who says so…every1 says it…. Yup m gng to drop a yr n prepare 4 it..i ll crack iims.. m so happy ..yes this s it… mom dad r u thr…. Y r u mum… dnt b... chillx ..its cool dude.. mba s r cool…dnt wry…u jst keep track of ur expences….

Present date: so here I m… its 5 am… just a month away 4D GR8 BATTLE OF CAT 08..n m still confused…..dreaming of becoming the gr8st blogger till date… mom dad u thr… my bday s on 5th dec…v ll hv a party ok!!

2.30 am

2.30 am… so m bck to my very dear time slot… its really special…I cn feel smethng at dis very hour… it was once …mean during my grad days.. a usual thng.. to wake up till the wee hours.. but being a drop –out now…a 'bekar' cat aspirant…n a part of lakhs of wannabes… it makes me feel awkward as well as happy too…. Coz its d gr8st satisfactn I find ….to b myself…to express myself in words…

my biggest regret will always be not havng enough of word stock...like the fellow bloggers do….i always run sort of words… the only thng m surving on is may be the emotional quotient…. Wot chetan bhagat specializes in… hey hold on …m nt by ne way comparing myself to him… whoff..!!

I ll always cherish this time…my very own 2.30 am…its d only tym of the entire day I feel to b completely occupied wid me…. Wid no 1 nearby….i enjoy this moment of solitude…thnks to Microsoft word too…

its all dark..a breeze of cool air blowing thru d right window…it’s a bliss!!